There are certain aspect’s in life where we are all alike, similar and completely different, this is one where we are all three at the same time. I want never gets is a phrase we all here at some point in our lives (for those saying, I haven’t heard it before, you just did, so HA) yet we all want to believe its not true, it basically is, but we can do something about it.

As for me, I want to see the world, I want to travel, see new things, feel new feelings, experience the experiences that are out there, I want hobbies, ones I can do around the globe. I want never gets right? I mean, if someone was to ask me why I don’t go and do it, I would throw debt’s at them and tell them I can’t, there’s things holding me back, but what is truly holding me back?

If I dig down, and am completely honest with myself, it is because I am scared, which is the part where I am alike with most, we are simply too scared to put ourselves out there, in case we get hurt in some way, shape or form. And lets face it, pain is the last thing anyone wants. So I have been thinking about it.

Linking this back to Puff Puff!, the fitness programme I am taking part in, I am finally beginning to get to where I want to be. See I am only twenty, still young enough to change my mind a million times and learn a million things. The latter is what I am going to do. The extra energy I have from the exercise and healthier eating I have been doing as discovered a once-hidden motivation deep within me, and its stirring, I find myself getting excited about things.

I have never been able to make my mind up fast about large-scale things, but now I find I can, I want to take more risks and do more, and I feel a lot more confident in myself. Finally I can admit too myself that I don’t do the things I want to do because I am scared.

Now is the time for me to throw myself at the world and cry ‘Look at me, Talk to me, Show me things’ and take whatever the world cries back in a positive way. I will travel too the far places I want to explore, I will see the things I have always wanted to see, and I will do this either alone, with others, or a mixture of both.

This doesn’t mean I’m going outright to travel the world for a year or so, it means I will go to different places each year and embrace what I see and learn. I will look more at extreme sports, and develop the smaller sports I have come to over look, I will keep to my exercise plan and I will feel better about myself. But will I stick to this? Only time will show the true strength of the newly awoken motivation within me.

What is it you want?

I have an idea, and this is how I did it. I did not think about it long, I picked up a pen and started writing, I first wrote down what it is I wanted in life. Then I folded up this piece of paper and placed it in front of me. Next I wrote down what my excuses where, what I thought was ‘Holding’ me back, so to speak. I folded this paper up and placed it next to the first. Lastly I wrote the true reason I would not do this, and did the same as before.

Next I opened the first piece of paper, which read, basically, what was in the paragraph before my question. The second I ripped up, and binned without reading it, and then I read the third, which read: I’m Scared.

But what is fear? If we cannot overcome it, then we succumb to it, which is a major sign of a weaker person. I believe I am beginning to overcome this fear, and am taking steps into a more positive side of my life, finally building a true future, not one that will just sustain me for the duration of my life, but one that will excite me, one I will be able to let myself feel proud of, one I will enjoy, and that I hope others can enjoy with me.

I do hope my blog today has helped people look inside them and see what they really want, and truly would like that this would maybe act as a foothold for those people to live the life they want to lead.

Please, let me know if this has helped you, and I would also appreciate if anyone can help me towards this, to reach my goal.

Do you fully understand what your goal is?

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Tags: Future, Life, Motivation, Travel, Want

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