Do you ever wish you could just pack everything up and disappear? Even if just for a few days or a few hours. I’ve been feeling that way alot lately.

As I may have mentioned, I was meant to have an operation a few weeks ago to have a tumour removed from my head. However a few days before hand the operation was cancelled due to my chief surgeon having some urgent business to attend to. I’ve since found out that my operation has been re-scheduled for next week, coincedntelly i go into hospital on the same day as i learn my exam results so, suffice to say its going to be an important day for me.

Now lately i’ve found myself feeling restless, i can’t seem to focus on any one thing and i quickly tire of the things i normally do to keep myself entertained. It just feels as if i spend the vast majority of my life waiting for the next operation, the next CT scan, the next doctors appointment etc. It’s left me feeling like my life is in a constant state of pause as i wait for the next big thing to see how it’ll effect my future.

Sometimes i dearly wish i could just leave everything behind, no explanations, no well meaning family members trying to cheer me up, just pick up and leave even if just for a few hours.

I need a holiday from my life.

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Tags: anxious, holiday, restless

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